When Things Don't Go As Planned
As some of you may know, River of Beautiful was supposed to launch Saturday, March 31st at 7am in the morning. Well, things didn't go as planned. It all started two weeks prior, when it snowed on the first day of spring! Jokingly I was like, "What? It's supposed to snow? I already have my makeup appointment and photo shoot scheduled for that day!"
I didn't get anxious, upset or complain. Instead, I decided to know that God works all things together for my good - where things go as planned or not. This was not the first time it snowed on my parade, lol. Five years ago, it snowed so bad the day of my baby shower. Maryland was in a state of emergency. Cars were getting stuck in ditches, there were accidents. The snow was coming down hard and fast. News stations and police agencies were advising everyone to stay off the road.
I had to cancel the place I already paid for, plus contact friends and family. I was in tears - a complete mess. My cake was already finished, food cooked and decorations made. I remember going downstairs to my mother-in-laws basement in the dark and crying my eyes out. I had so many thoughts running through my mind. I was hurt. I felt sabotaged. To be honest, if I can remember correctly, I was mad at God. Like, how could you let it snow on the day of my baby shower? Yes, I was mad. My friend that cooked the food came over with her family. I believe I may have opened a gift and we ate.
That experience has taught me so much. Yes, things didn't go as planned. Yes, I didn't get my way. Yes, I'm sure my hormones were raging out of control. However, looking back, I wish that I would've had more gratitude. I had a healthy pregnancy, friends that still trucked it through a snow storm, and a experience that has taught me that God is control. Plus, I was able to throw another baby shower.
I know I can be extreme in my thinking sometimes, but, what if someone was praying for it to snow because they had a terminal illness and they weren't going to make it to spend Christmas with their family? What if someone prayed for it to snow so they can experience childhood memories of throwing snowballs with their children? Or, what if God allow it to snow so that I can encourage you, myself included, that it's not the end of the world just because things don't always go our way.
God is still good. Just because things don't work out the way we want them to does not mean He doesn't love us. Yes, it may hurt that relationship didn't work out. Yes, it may hurt when you didn't get your dream job. Yes, it may hurt when you feel like should be somewhere else in life. In those moments, God is still God. He is still good. He is still trustworthy. He is still our Father. He still loves us.
I'm learning how to find joy in the best and worst of situations. In seeking joy, I find peace - peace that although my website is launching 3 months later that it still launched! Woot woot! The blessing of being intentional with seeking joy and finding peace is that God is with us through it all. He calms every anxiety and fear. When we seek Him to still out heart, He is faithful to do just that!
“You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You.” - Isaiah 26:3